There are those random moments in life when we look back at certain past events..certain memories that we have cherished at the back of our minds ..and smile...a true genuine smile that is born from the depths of our hearts. Its a smile that brings back the memories, the happiness involved with those memories and fills our heart with warmth and a strange sense of meloncholy too...its a true smile that is born out of true happiness...
Yet the smile in itself is of a strange nature...its a genuine smile that makes your eyes brighten up. yet hidden behind that smile is an element of sadness, hurt and pain...maybe it springs from the fact that you realize that your source of happiness is no longer available..no longer yours..or maybe its the hurt that springs from regret..regret that life had to turn out this way..the ache in your heart for that mising element of happiness in your life......
but yet you smile...coz the memories are soo sweet so warm that its warmth still fills your heart and makes you feel as if it all happened just yesterday:)
There were times when i felt that every memory would only bring a tear..but things seem differnt now...the hurt and pain still lingers yet the memories dont hurt as much...they still bring a smile on to my face for when i look back i realize that they were the best times of my life..the happiest and the best and i'm thankful to at least have the memories to hold on to...
the smile may not be as pretty as it was...it may not make me glow like it once did but as long as the memories last i will always smile that happy blue smile of mine:)
its strange how random people can influence us soo much..how even a simple thing as a smile relies on them..on the memories they created for us..we created with them...
I have met many lovely people in my life....people who have influenced me in numerous ways..who have made me what i am today...but for me there is but just one person who will always always make me smile...
things may have changed...yet......life continues...two separate paths that were never meant to merge...yet the smile will always remain the same...
I only wish i knew.. whether the memories light up those eyes. too...just like they do mine...whether they add a gleam, a sparkle to the brightest pair of eyes i've ever seen...i wish i knew whether i was able to give back at least a fraction of the same happiness to the life that added a new dimension to my own life and changed it forever............
Miss Pri realy wishes she knew!
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