I miss u!! there i said it out aloud! and no it doesnt make me feel any better!
its strange how i miss u everytime something's not going right in my life..i miss u when im stressed out and when i'm stuck!
i guess its coz that even in the short time u were around u helped to make things better in ur own dumb way! sigh!
but this time i'm not missing you coz i'v messed up life on this side of the planet..i'm missing you coz i'm worried about u!!
things dont seem to be going all that well at ur end..ur struggling and i know its getting to you or u wudnt express it openly.
sigh..i wish there was someway i could help u..not like it would realy help u but at least i would have liked to do something for u! no that sounds lame! i dont know why i want to help u! i just want to help u!!!
i remember u saying those very same words once when u were in banga and things were all crappy! i rememeber coz i was there with u then...i know i helped u out of it..and u paid me back with pearls!! PRIANIL STOP BEING MEAN!!!
i'm sorry i didnt mean it like that...
sigh! i wish there was something i could do to make u feel better. the fact that i can do nothing, that i'm soo helpless that i cant raise the spirits of someone who was soo close to my heart..realy realy sux!!
i have never felt this helpless before...
but i cannot go against my word..i have to stick by the decision i took...
it is only at times like this that i regret ever writing that letter..if not things may have been different! awful for me coz i wud have continued to remain a nobody in ur life.
ur option..my priority!
and sometimes i wonder whether at times like this..u feel like talking to miss pri..do u miss her?? do u even remember her?? does it even matter? did it ever??
for the first time in a long time and maybe for the last time in a long time too..i just wish u wud do that...
i'm sorry thrs nothing i can do for u nidikumbz..u once told me that i helped u out when ever u were in a bad mood..i'm soory i cant do that anymore..
i can only pray that God will bless u with what u want most right now...and i hope u know that miss pri will always be there for her cowboy always!
i miss u..:(
play well...
