Been quite awhile since I've written anything at all. I'm not sure why that is. Lack of time or just a lack of motivation to record the nice and the not so nice things that happen in my happy blue life?? oh well I'm not here to analyze reasons for my absence..just here to pen some thoughts, or rather 'type' some thoughts..
so much has happened since my last post. It's impossible to record everything here and no I'm not even trying to. All that I can say though is that nothing very drastic, or dramatic has happened. oh well no, on second thoughts let me correct that..drastic, dramatic things have happened..but nothing that caused heartbreaks and buckets of tears! LOL! ( let's say I got quite close to one though)
oh well..life on this side of the blue planet is..well...mmm...satisfactory. not perfect. perfect is boring. but sometimes perfect would also be nice. just sometimes.
of the most significant things that has happened since I last wrote is that I am no longer an unemployed citizen of the country:) It's an amazing job and it's truly been a gift from the one above! I love every minute of work and it's a superb experience and at least now I know that once I leave uni I'll be armed with that ever important 'experience'. I could never have asked for a better working environment. the people are cool, no backbiting and bitching and there's so much of room to grow! Plus having a really cool boss is an added advantage!
Uni's pretty much the same..boring and blah..but at least I'm spared the misery of lit units this semester and that's a HUGE relief! hopefully I can get that GPA up! well right now we're on indefinite vacation coz the dons are pushing for a pay hike which I feel is a fair request. well despite the fact that this means that things will get pushed back and the semester will lag for another few good months I personally am in favour of this protest coz they deserve what they are asking for!
I read the most hilarious letter in my life today and I still can't stop laughing when I think about it, courtesy of course the dingbat! she is just hilarious and I despite the fact that she's my best friend I just cannot understand how her mind works sometimes!! oh well the world does need a handful of nuts and I sure have been blessed with the queen of all nuts:D I really hope she finds a nice boy who will not take advantage of her amazingly good nature. Like raiya always says she has a heart of gold. she really does!
A part of me is still trying to grapple with the reality of a situation that I was made aware of a few days ago. I do not even have the courage to type it out because it seems so unbelievable. it just makes you realize that there's nothing in this world that you can be sure of.. I''m just sad that I can't be there for her. the disappointment, the pain, the endless questions...I can almost feel her pain and it hurts coz I can't do anything for her:(( I can only pray that she will find comfort in the Lord.
writing about that has made me dull now...
Bubzy boo:) I love him and I love him more everyday. we hit 365 in a couple of days and it seems like just yesterday that he sent that first text to me. Our relationship has evolved during these 365 days and we are now not just lovers, but best friends and an irreplaceable part of each others lives.
I confess ours is not the most perfect relationship. we fight and argue all the time. I boss him, he gets stubborn and refuses to be bossed and we end up fighting. No we don't end up fighting. we end up making up and loving each other even more. And I think that's the nicest part about us. We both admit that we're wrong and we also admit that we just cannot live without each other.
I had my doubts..just a very small doubt whether bubz could really not do without me. But he completely diminished that by changing his mind on a very very important decision regarding our future together. And I know it wasn't easy for him. It meant giving up a life long dream so that my dream could come true and most importantly that we could be together. I love him for that and he will never know how grateful I am to him for giving me my dream. If i witnessed a miracle in my life... it was then.
he's a good boy. a really really good boy with a good heart that's not cold or hard. he has good values, good principles and I admire him for those, even though at times I may not agree with them. There are very few people who can stick by their principles, who have good moral values and he has it all. I'm truly proud of my boy friend.
I love him, I love bossing him and pampering him and just knowing that he's mine and I'm his.
our love is solid and that's what gives me strength. The future is of course in God's hands but I know he loves the two of us:)
it's 1.11 on the 5th of July and I must be off. I'm a happy girl. I've written all that I intended to write and I can write no more.
till we meet again remember...
God can work miracles!
