Realization strikes at the most random moments ever.Just like a little matchstick can start a bonfire one little random incident, insignificant..yes... helps you realize things that you may never have realized.
Yes i keep my mouth shut. But that doesnt mean i dont have feelings too. I do. Its just that I dont go around proclaiming them to the world and making an issue out of every little thing that doesnt go my way.I dont coz i dont! coz thats not me.
Just coz i keep shut does not mean every nasty thing can be hurled against me just coz everyone out there knows that i keep shut!!They just take it for granted that i'm there. just there. a wooden creature who doesnt feel, who cant understand. a stupid wooden woman! a lifeless, emotionless piece of wood that can never get hurt coz don't you know only people with feelings get hurt!! the wooden woman doesnt have those!
Yea thats what they all feel. thats what they all do.they just take your existence for granted..no not your existence...but the fact that you keep shut! the fact that they can treat you as they want, say what they want, be indifferent if they want and you dont mind!!! you dont mind coz you keep shut.Your silence is their weapon.
My silence doesnt mean that I'm not hurt..that i dont care..that whatever nasty things anyone may do and say i will still be nice to them at the end of the day!
i'm not a wooden woman.
i keep shut coz silence is more comforting...and its a fool who talks! a wise man only listens.
dont mistake my silence for a weakness..even if it is a weakness its not anyone's to exploit.
and sometimes i keep shut coz i dont want to lose something dear by opening my mouth and telling the world how much i despise the way they treat me.
they treat me like a wooden woman coz they know me too well dont they...they know she'll always keep shut!
their indifference hurts her...like the unkindest cut that sears through the soul.
They hurt her because they think they can. or maybe they dont! maybe...just maybe...its a way.........................
sweety sometimes people don't say stuff coz they wanna hurt you on purpose but may it's coz they can't bear the pain any longer too.. may be they don't mean it when they do it..may be they are just helpless too.. i dunno..it's complicating.. but there is something you can be happy about..they make a fuss coz they want you to be a part of their life.
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