sigh!

the new week starts in a few more hours and i'm cracking even before it does. It's 6 p.m and i've come close to crying more times than I can count. The stress reminds me of the heartbreak of a few months ago simply because its making me want to crack and split into a million pieces under the pressure of something huge.Something I feel I can't get through. It's only a day though..a moment...and moments pass...I thought heartbreak would never pass- but it did..somewhat..i guess it never realy will completly. And if i got through that( at least partialy) i can get through a week of crap!

It just feels so imcomplete...i feel incomplete..inadequate.like a cow and i wish i had wings to just fly out of this shithole to better lands. Cows dont fly!

its like being lost in maze. like searching for the causes of WW1. unclear, baffling confusing! and never a proper concrete reason.always vague....distant.

Amidst the sulky mood i keep having this constant random thought..i dont knw why..and it scares me. Its funny how you come across people you cant live without, even for a few days. It's not that you cant..its more that you just dont want to. In a way i think that is all the more powerful.

But as all things you learn...to adjust..to live without them..if the circumstances necessitate it that is.

sigh..

I have so much work today..it sux. but then so does everyone else and the last thing I should be doing is wasting my time blogging. But dashing this out has made me feel..a bit more cheerful.

It's cool no how i write to work through my sulks??

I'm out of here. Dicatatorship and the isolationist policies of the US and the Soveit Union beckon me!