There are times when i dont understand my own self!! why is it that i still keep hoping for things which i know can never ever be??? why do i expect things from people who i know can never give me anything i want???why am i still so disappointed when things that i want dont turn out the way i want them to??why do i still keep waiting???why do i still keep thinking about things that i see no point in thinking about but still do think about???why do i still pray?? why do i still hope???why do i wish that i could turn back time..change things...???why do i keep wishing for things that i know there's no point in wishing for??? why are people for whom i am just another option, just another person ....still a priority in my life???why am i still giving them such a lot of importence in my life? why do i still care for those who dont give a shit about me??? why do i always keep wondering about them??about what they are doing??whether they are happy???what do i get by caring for people who just dont care????
why why why????
maybe that's who i am......an idiotic, stupid stupid stupid stupid girl who doesnt know what she's doing, whose holding on to things which dont belong to her, whose unable to let go.......whose tired and fed up of holding on yet has not the strength to let go!!! an idiot thats who i am!!!
i hate myself for what i am doing to my own self!!!!!!
i hate.....................everything!
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